From a not so wise novice writer:
DO NOT BURN YOURSELF OUT.
I'm learning this the hard way. If you read my last post, A Tale of Victory, then you know on November the 16th I won NaNoWriMo by hitting the 50,000 word mark. I wrote a little over 21K words that day, some of it admittedly from notes the weekend before. I was victorious, a sprinter in a marathon. And now, a confession.
I haven't written a word since then.
I still need to wrap up the last one or two scenes to complete the novel and set it aside for a while before starting on edits and revisions, but I haven't been able to get my head into writing. I think my Muse is still recovering, 5 days after the epic push. My sleeping habits have become erratic once more, and my ADHD medications don't seem to be helping with the brain fog of whizzing thoughts I wake up with and can't seem to get rid of all day. I recognize these symptoms could be my ADHD, but I also recognize I may have exasperated them by pushing too hard.
I should have paced myself, for just behind the NaNoWriMo 50K finish line was my Completed First Draft finish line, and I stalled out before I could get there.
Even without my Muse I can't seem to stop the blizzard of words that attacks me, stinging and biting when I reach out to catch a few with the intention of placing them in my WIP. Sure, I can write a blog or tweet or talk with my friends and family. But when my mind wanders to the waiting story, my brain turns to mush and I have to take my laptop from my desk in the garage and go lay down on the couch or my bed. There is a pressure in my head, tensing my shoulders and causing me some sleepless nights.
I've made an appointment with my Primary Care Physician (military speak for the non specialist doctor) to get a referral to evaluate my sleeping. Because beyond the word exhaustion, I've been having problems going to sleep, waking up, and feeling rested. I do on occasion wake up feeling ready to take on the world, either my created ones or the real one, but more often than not it's a miss and not a hit.
I confess to feeling very worried about all this. Is this just my ADHD meds no longer working for me? Or is it some sort of sleep disorder? Will this affect my writing in the future? Will it cause enough problems that it will make working on more stressful deadlines unfathomable? Heck, will this blogpost cause second thoughts to agents who google me when I finally query?
I can only hope I can write a blog in the near future that cancels out this one. I can only hope to find a way through this tiresome fog, a way to bypass it when it's there. I wish fervently the doctor will find the root of my problem and a solution to go with it. But the earliest appointment available was for December 1st. So for now, I'm hoping a week of trying to relax and not force myself to write, and not feel guilty when I don't, will do the trick.
Because really? All I want to do is write.
From a not so wise novice writer:
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